From my soul, to it's mate.

It's days like this you sit and think, where was I a few months ago?
Who was I before this person came into my life.
I find myself struggling to write about this person, as I myself cannot quite comprehend what has happened to me.

So I sit and try and brainstorm a few words to help describe to you all what I'm feeling. The first one I think of is 'Luck'
I say Luck because a few months a go I was a body without a soul, or at least my soul was damaged and every day was a struggle, it all seems like such a distant memory now but one thing I'll never forget is the mind set I was in. I felt trapped like there was no way out and no way forward.

With a blink of an eye, without me even noticing, it went away.
'Saved' that's the other word I'm looking for, I feel saved.. You see I met this person, whom I've shared a connection with for a year or two now. Even though from a far I've always known my life would of been tied with his. I watched him from a far praying, hoping and dreaming that one day he could be mine.

'Happy' That is the other word, Because now that I've met him, the days of despair are gone, nothing is comparable to what I felt , the pain of being trapped inside your own darkness and drowning in self pity and neglect. The only thing that could ever compare is it's polar opposite, the exact opposite of that feeling is what I feel now, and I think that is happiness.

I always asked myself, how could I love again? What if I would never forget my first? you see I'm a very loyal person and I never wanted to love more than once.
But it is clear to me that this love is the first.
'New' that is the final word I will use to describe these feelings.
New, because love heals all wounds, love when it is true indeed does suffice enough for you to breathe, for you to live everyday with simple humble things, your desires become revolved around that person, your needs , wants , thought because locked in a whirlwind of their love.

Yes, indeed this is new, because I realize the only real feelings I ever felt before were pain, and now that I know what love is I feel like the luckiest girl in the world to have found it.

I have found my soul mate , the spirit that is kindled with my own, the one that I will never part with, for this love is real.

I wake everyday thinking about this other soul, thinking about what it's doing, where it goes. If I close my eyes tightly I can almost feel this soul's presence and reach out in my mind and touch him. I believe love connects two souls together and places them in sync on another realm.
The spiritual realm, where everything is possible, when we dream they say our soul is res-erected and it plays with it's mate in the realm of the spiritual, it becomes intertwined and tangled in the other souls very presence, when we sleep the soul comes back down into our body and that is what wakes us.

I got to thinking, so if I did happen to meet this soul in this reality, the one that would travel every night to play and frolic with it's counter part, what would that feeling be like? When they held me, would I know? How would I realize that they were mine already.

Then I find myself thinking to myself, and smiling, because that is the only thing that describes my love now, 'It's written and it's already happening, we are destiny and fate in one, we are already together we have been since the beginning

of time... you are my soul mate.

I love you always.