That 5-10 seconds every morning when you wake up and can't remember anything, the pain is gone your life is fine, and the only thing you think about in those couple of seconds is the morning, your in your bed and it's time to wake up, usually followed shortly after by thoughts of that significant other. But then reality hits, you realize you were hurt, you fell asleep crying again last night and you don't have anybody, not a single soul to think about. You have plenty to cry about though.
See here is the thing with love, yeah it can be great, but what about the pain? Nobody talks about the pain your left with when it's gone. Why doesn't Cinderella get her heart broken? Why doesn't the beast beat Belle up and call her ugly?
Because love isn't a fairytale. It's a mature feeling and a state of mind. It has its fun, it's happiness
and it has it's pain. IF your one of the un lucky people to have loved and then had somebody take it away from you, then you know this pain.
They say when you see your ex your supposed to feel nothing and that's when you have gotten over it, the opposite of love is indifference they say. Indifference.. really? because I don't think I'll ever feel indifference about somebody that used to be my whole world, at least not in this life time. The reality about heartache is that just like depression, there are no quick fix solutions, you can't just stop caring or feel indifference, you can't just move on and find somebody else. All these cliche's they don't make sense, all these things your friends tell you, they make you feel better at the time, but in practice they make no sense whatsoever.
Here is the truth, you never get over somebody. You change. When you change, so does your mind set. Wether you were forced to be in this position or you chose it, it's what happens. You don't get over the person you once loved, you realize that love is a state of mind and yours was scrambled, like getting amnesia or hitting your head too hard. It all made sense once, it was all magical.. once , right?
But then it's gone, and your left with pain, the only thing to remind of them is your pain, and the odd memory here and there, but the most prominent thing your left with is pain.
So you don't get over somebody, you stay exactly were you were when you met them, what happens is you just go back to square one, before you kissed, before they were the only thing you could think about, before the tears and heart ache and waiting around next to the phone hoping they will call you. Your just free..
They are not there anymore, they don't occupy time, they don't have significance, you remember the mind set you used to be in when they did. But they don't.
Basically you don't move on, you change. You probably change for the better, a change that just like the experience of love we all must feel one time in our lives. It's a mind set, and it's reality. So next time prince charming comes knocking on your door, be wary and ask yourself, is he worth the pain?
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